reading..

its e-m-o time once again. its always at this period of the night... and the feeling utterly sucks. gawd

in any case... school's about to start soon. and i'm kinda dreading it.

u know the phrase overpromise and underdeliver? i think i always do that to myself in terms of results. ever since secondary school, i have never once felt like i've achieved much. i guess its cos how i've been brought up. my mum always said 一山还比一山高。its kinda been ingrained into my mind already. so perhaps at times i comfort myself by comparing my grades to my peers. but at the end of the day, have i actually achieved what i have wanted to achive for myself? or in other words have i defeated myself? the answer has so far remained a negative no, save for certain instances.

moving on, to something i don't think is any less depressing, but simply just a change in topic - the subject of mantaining relationships. nobody said it was easy. but nobody told me it was this tough too. its been difficult trying to meet up with people this hols. what with the stuff we do at the y, meetings in school for the race next year, and revamping the house. its been tough. and there are groups of people that i certainly do miss, from the bottom of my heart. (ARH EMO EMO HELP)

in any case, i feel much better now, since i've put typed some of it out. its jus the PHWOAR feeling if u get what i mean.

i shall go to my bed and read. reading takes my mind off things. puts me in a place where nobody can touch me if i don't let them. that's why i like reading, cowardly as it might seem to be hiding off in another world of my own. potter here i come (:

DA BOMB

the entire process of ycamp dec 2008 all the way to the end wasn't exactly the bomb i was looking for, but it was nonetheless a wonderful experience, despite all the problems and setbacks along the way.

I LOVE DEC 2008 YCAMP COMM!!!!!

don't want the hols to end because:
1) I HAVEN'T GOT ENOUGH OF SLACKING YET!

2) i'll miss ycamp comm crazy outings... :( took a gazillion photos and videos within the past month. haha camwhoring surely...

3) everyone will be back in ntu, smu, nyp, ite, sp. etc etc.. :(

4) haven't done my research on isp nepal

5) need more rest
but since when has the world been fair!

and it'll be the start of a new year soon...

need to set new year resolutions soon...
and to keep to them this time!

looking forward to all the other activities as well!
BCM GATHERING! ITS BEEN A LONG TIME MY GIRLS! haha.

and soccer girls when are we meeting up :(:(

YCAMP COMM DEC 2008 U'RE DA BOMB! (: *love the msn mass convos!*


P.S. snippets from an msn convo
anyone needs talented actors please find anyone of us from the ycamp comm.
the job would go to guosheng - (:

yiwei says (5:12 PM):
hahah
yiwei says (5:12 PM):
what are the roles he can play?
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
wowwww
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
big question
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
HAHA
yiwei says (5:12 PM):
enunch?
yiwei says (5:12 PM):
=P
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
AHAHAHHAH
yiwei says (5:12 PM):
LOL
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
evil leh u
shiqi says (5:12 PM):
lol
yiwei says (5:13 PM):
hahah.. okie give him better one
yiwei says (5:13 PM):
!
yiwei says (5:13 PM):
=P
shiqi says (5:14 PM):
faint-
shiqi says (5:14 PM):
u're really evil
shiqi says (5:14 PM):
haha
yiwei says (5:14 PM):
hahah
yiwei says (5:14 PM):
no lor
yiwei says (5:14 PM):
cannot let his talent go to waste
yiwei says (5:14 PM):
=P

cherish every moment

soccer meetup has been cancelled. due to people like me who couldn't wake up i think. sigh. :( i miss the girls!

and then so many things have been happening recently, haven't even got time to think about it all. everything has just been a blur.

and then just now. on my bed, suddenly, there was just a lot of time to think. the whole of today.

and i don't like the feeling. its like emo-ing in the day.

and the best thing is, i dun even know why. that's the irony.

sometimes i think i have too much of a heart, i wear it too much on my sleeve. is it my si xue?

sua told me b4 when i asked how to make things go slower. he said to cherish every moment.