train rides.

I am tired, mentally and physically, and I didn't think about anything else on the train. Its always times like this that never fail to lead me to the same conclusion: WHY am i doing this to myself over and over again?

Perhaps I'm asking for too much for things to become as they were before i fell asleep on the phone such a long time ago. But now, its getting worse than ever. And i no longer think I have the energy to keep up with the weird antics of this relationship between us.

You say there's always a listener and a talker in a relationship. But is this the true definition of it? I don't now about that.

I came across something whilst reading and its been dead stuck onto my mind ever since: Friends are people who take an interest in each others' lives. I don't know if this applies anymore. To anyone...

Don't be mistaken that i'm angry at you, if you ever read this post. I'm just angry at myself, for being over-reliant, for being the one who's always feeling sorry for herself, for being the one who's always running to you when I have the problems, for being the one you never run to when you meet problems. It seems... one-sided to me.

Yes, I may be too demanding of this relationship. After all, I played a part in its development as well.

People tell me to talk to you about it. How the hell am i supposed to breach this topic when everything is as it is now? Is this the dead-end for all once-successful relationships? But then again, am I to suck this all up and live with it? I don't think so. You're too precious as a friend.